Of course, there are also those long term shopping projects. The times when you are seeking something unique and undefined. And when you find it, you will just know.
One of my long term shopping projects involves pillows for my living room couch. I would like to add a pop of color to the room, preferably something turquoise blue since I am already using it as an accent color. It has been on my radar for months. Every time I am at Target or Home Goods I check to see what types of pillows they have in stock.
Last weekend I was out shopping with my sister and I found two sets of turquoise pillows at Home Goods. The first set was a funky turquoise and white zigzag pattern and the second was just plain turquoise, but they were a polished silk with ridges that made them look very luxe. I couldn't choose between them in the store, so I brought both sets home to see how they would look on the couch.
I quickly discovered that the zigzag pillows had too much white in them, which did not blend with the beige couch. And when I stared at them for too long, they made my eyes hurt. The more luxe turquoise pillows were a closer fit. They looked nice on the couch, but the color was just a little too bright. It did not go with the more muted tones in my rug.
I really wanted the pillows to work, so I left them on the couch all week to see if they would blend in with the rest of the furniture. Each day I would walk through the living room and pause to stare at those pillows. The more I looked at them, the more I liked them. The color, the fabric, the way they puffed up to fill the corners of the couch. If only I had a different couch, those pillows would be perfect.
This morning I woke up and realized that I have been trying to make things fit, when the fact is that they don't. I returned all of the pillows to Home Goods, as well as two purses I have purchased in the last two weeks. Purses are another complicated story... I will spare you the details.
As I was driving out to Home Goods, I had a long conversation with my (ex) boyfriend. I have been talking with him a lot over the past few weeks and trying to see if there is any way I can salvage our relationship. He is kind of like those turquoise pillows. I really like him and I want him to fit into my life, but somehow he just doesn't.
Wouldn't it be nice if relationships came with their own return policy? I could log back into Match.com and exchange my boyfriend for another one who can communicate better. Or I could just return him and get a refund of all the time and energy I invested in the relationship.
The sad thing is that I don't want to return or exchange him. I want him to be a perfect fit. He was the longest long term shopping project of my life. And for a few months I was so happy to think that it was finally over and I would not have to search anymore.
So I guess I am back where I started. Looking for the love of my life. And some new throw pillows for my living room couch. The next time I am out shopping, I promise myself that I will only buy things that are exactly what I am looking for.